4 years. That’s what she
gave; that’s how long she waited for you to make sense of it all. 4 years. That’s
what you both invested. Beyond superlatives, you knew she invested more than
just those 4 years - she gave you her heart and her loyalty. You sigh heavily; mumble
some incomprehensible words asking yourself what more she could have invested. You
couldn’t answer.
4 years ago you met her on a
late October morning. You were on your way to work. She was on her way to her graduation
ceremony with a friend. Paths crossed, tender sparks flickered and numbers were
exchanged. She was looking exactly the way you loved women to look – radiant and
beautiful. You were sure she gave you a wrong name at the time.
4 years of amazing times was
what it was for you loved her. However, you were sure she loved you more. This you
didn’t realize until a close female friend opened your eyes to it. You realized
that you can be sometimes clueless in these things. But love is never enough
you learnt much later.
3 years in, you were almost
sure you didn’t make her as happy as before. You knew exactly why for you
caused it. A few indiscretions and a huge mistake of not doing the proper
introductions to your mum on time. You didn’t think it was a big deal at the
time until speculations and wrong assumptions started flying around. You corrected
it a little too late. You both lost yourselves in the process for she had
exhausted her patience. And you had almost exhausted your will.
You see, you respected her
more when she didn’t walk away from you. Her friends called her stupid. You later
realized why she stayed. You respected her even more after that. She was the
most loyal human being you had ever met.
4 years. Not once did you think
it was going to end. Not once did you doubt that you wanted to spend the rest
of your life with her. 4 years and all of the plans, promises and expectations disappear
with the lazy December wind.
It was your longest, most
serious and nearly your most intense relationship. It was a big proof to
yourself that you were not scared of commitment anymore. But you were still
certain you were scared of marriage. But you look at your parents and you find
audacity and hope that it’s possible no matter what. Theirs wasn’t perfect but
it’s been working for 40 years.
4 years and you wake up to
the reality that you have just become a bachelor all over. You were not sure
how that made you feel. You’d figure it out you mumbled and went to sleep.
Foye.